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The other day - late on Sunday evening, actually - I woke up to find my hand was oddly red. I think it's a reaction to the dye on my pillow, or something, but it's made me pretty glad I sleep with the pillow that way up, because otherwise it would be my face; and my hand is still red. It looks and feels quite like a sunburn, so I have moisturised and hope that will help.

I did not go to therapy today even though I was awake. Last week kinda sucked. I'm not even sure what we were talking about any more, but there were tears and awkward silences. I just remembered he's on holiday next week, woo. I spend a lot of time avoiding thinking. This is probably not good for me but last time I lay quietly and thought, it was about getting another tattoo and/or piercing just for the endorphin buzz, which is basically self-harm that also hurts the wallet. Ugh. This is why I don't have a brain any more, I use too much of it stopping other bits of it from doing anything. And there isn't even anything particularly bad in there.

Now I am going to choir to sing loud things; that is good.

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This is why I don't have a brain any more, I use too much of it stopping other bits of it from doing anything.

Eg-fucking-zackly.

Bah to all of it, anyway. :)

*snarls and bites things*

My brain wants to think about tattoos. I am yet to get my first but am perilously close to breaking. Presently my brain is much like an octopus in a string bag - too full to contain extra without the loss of existing content, and frankly it's getting wriggley and messy in there.

Hope the pillow thing does not cause more grief and that your hand is back to normal soon.

x

I plan to get wings between my shoulderblades at some point, and I've been flirting with the idea of ivy twined down my arm, and a couple more piercings; but I'll be eligible to give blood again in a month or so if I don't get anything done before then, and even though I don't often go when I'm eligible, I still feel guilty when I'm not. So. Are you still thinking firebird?

Octopusses are awesome, did you see the video of them using coconut shells as houses?

My hand is slowly fading; it really is like a sunburn, the pinkness is now mostly on the backs of my fingers, just the bottom joint, and it really shows when I move them because the webbing is milk-white as ever. Bodies are weird.

Yes, tho due to time and money I am thinking start small. The phoenix would be whole-of-back. I'm currently considering a safety-pin based design (I should, really) :) and a small blue butterfly which I want to go on my chest (just above left boobage) who may be joined later by some friends on my midrif. Bit cliche'd girly I know but the design has taken a fancy to my brain.

We shall see. I am also missing my old eyebrow piercing...

Oh, forgot to say: the octopus coconut house made me smile lots...