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[kbk]

Fail at life. Am essentially nocturnal. Did not go to metalwork class even though it is a good thing and I had slept lots. Also I have a letter I have not opened yet.

It's hard to find the balance between the fear of doing things and the guilt of not doing them.

I am going to wait until the house is empty, then I am going to get caffeine, and tidy my room. For srs, u guyz! fr srs!

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[kbk]

Generally the apathy supercedes the guilt, but only until I notice it.

Meh. It's the ruts of thought again. If I can think about it the right way, it's fine, but the ruts go a different way.

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And the ruts are pretty ingrained so trying to make thoughts flow elsewhere is essentially uphill. I totally need further therapy once this lot finishes next week, but therapist is right that I possibly need something that is not supposed to be direct and focused because I am very rambly indeed. But therapy helps with the ruts I find. A bit. It's just annoyingly slow and hard. Grr.

*internet hugs and shall have to stop being broke so I can do real hugs*