another Battle Royale fic

remember the beauteous idea I had on Friday? I finally got round to writing the rest of the fic. didn't turn out quite like I expected, but I think maybe I like this way better. I may end up writing the original version, but... whatever.

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"touch me, I'm sick"

apart from the fact that I have a visceral reaction to evil!Spike and Angelus, especially when... oh, man, the scene with the Slayer in New York when Spike breaks her neck; it's not just the tight jeans and piercing and leather vest, it's the way he cradles her head so gently and then twists; I am so attracted to him at that moment...

anyway, I'm watching vids, and this one has a clip of when Riley staked Spike. and a little while ago, when I saw that clip, I had a thought. I think it was something to do with the way Spike's body arches. But anyway. After that happens, Spike has an extra hole in his body. I considered writing a fic where Riley... 'uses' that hole. I'm sick. I told you I was sick. Spike just says "sex" to me (god, I wish he would...), I don't like Riley, I'm a sick sick sick individual and there's something wrong with my brain.

and I'm so random right now I thought I'd share that with the world.

I'm sick. I'm sick. I'm so fucking sick.

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quotes from today:
"I bought you fucking eyelash-curlers!"
"You make very splenic balloons."

I'm sure there'll be more later.

turns out G is still on Prozac. thought she had gone off it ages and ages ago. but apparently not. god. I hate following in family footsteps. wah.

we ate. and we were making balloons from Magic Plastic but my hands were too warm so mine was all sticky and... ick. so.

gyah. I dunno. may write more angst. that would probably help.

Rev says the pier is open again. that's a very good thing. we need to go for a walk later. definitely.

gyah. must change music.

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went for walk along pier. was horrendously exciting.

boys went to only pub still open, will be back later. sisters are upstairs. I going to shower.

I want to see Two Towers! and I want to see CoS as well, and I'm just so not going to get round to seeing both of them, so I'm guessing it's CoS that'll be dropped. damnit.

also horrendously bored. being as it is Christmas, and I didn't get any books, and I just can't be bothered reading fic right now. but. whatever. and I have no mail. I never have any mail (*sob*) - except of course when I'm away for a couple of days and somehow get enough absolutely huge things to break my limit on hotmail, despite the fact that I run at around 50% full. bastards. anyway. shower.