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I don't want to be real.

I want to be able to just lose myself in my own mind, a virtual world that is nothing and... dammit, I don't know. I just know that I'm busily fucking up my degree and there are consequences to that and so on and so forth. It's just that the only things I want to do with my life are things that won't pay. So.

Maybe I should just go into porn.