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Am awake! omfg! and am have got up and gone to doctor and got sickline (though, buggrall, means I have to, y'know, do more paperwork) and an referral to psychotherapist huzzah.

and wandered paisley a bit and got very cold fingers and came home and will mebbe go to shop in bit because have realised how sick I am of eating meat all the time when I have been semi-veggie for most of the last few years. so I am going to get, like, chickpeas and quorn and stuff and then I can cook my own lunch (because the males in the house would likely not eat such things and thus I cannot become responsible for tea at any time, oh the shame.) also, need chocolate. lots of. etc.

*sigh* *for no good reason* *oh dear, I may be high* *that is bad because then I crash* *and then I am grouchy at people* *and then they are grouchy back* *sigh*

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I have developed a new habit. I lean my jaw on the heel of my left hand and I chew the last joint of my little finger. I know it is a habit because the skin between nail and knuckle is now rough. I keep finding myself doing it in response to fic, be it angst, joyous, or hot porn.

But I'm confused, because I don't remember ever sucking my thumb when I was a kid. So the way I figure it, either I've succumbed to cigarette addiction (unlikely, given the fact that I still have most of a pack which I bought in December) or... Fandom has given me an oral fixation.

All that kissing and licking and sucking. All the pretty boys with their pretty lips. Etcetera. *sigh*