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OK, so I've been doing the DVDrental thing, and the other day I got the second disc of I-Man. And I watched the first disc before that, and I quite liked it, though the production qualities were dubious - though I am thinking about the interview here, chiefly, so, whatever - and, yeah, I thought, I'll watch this. I just watched "Ralph" which is the third episode and I am all teared up. I'm actually now looking at buying the whole series. Because I lack patience.

Also, perhaps, because I am very aware that DW has one episode to go. And, god, you'd think I didn't have enough displacement activities...

And now I'm veering into selfhate again. Bugger. At least I'm consistent.

But I'm at the point where I'm even sabotaging things I enjoy. I went to bed and was on my way to sleep and was thinking about the crappy novel that is never actually going to get written, because I had a couple of ideas, I put on the computer, and I immediately went looking for fic instead of writing anything down. And I've written down a little. But it's all crap anyway so who cares?

Fuck it, fuck it, another beer and another episode and things will be better, surely.

ETA: Wah. I should have stopped after "Tiresias" because I quite liked that but "Impetus" is making me cringe. But I'm watching it now so I have to. just. watch it. Right. *deep breath* No more pausing.