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kbkSo I wrote this SPN fic which I might find is crap when I'm sober but I don't think so because I can't be drunk because I'm still typing perfectly well. It's quite a useful self-regulator, that.
I'm kidding, I know my limits and three beers over many hours is nothing like. The fic is fine. I just don't know if it does what I want it to.
Because there was an interesting little bit of meta on what people write about - what their themes are - and I realised that mine are 1) "they fuck you up, your parents do" except for parents, often read friends/colleagues/acquaintances and 2) how messed-up a person can be yet still cope, which goes either way - a) a person messed-up yet dealing, or b) piling on the pressure until someone breaks (as illustrated in my second-most-recent SGA, which was... let me find the comment... "a wonderful look at how you can use torture to break somebody" Heh.)
The new fic is 2)a) for Dean. Because there are enough people torturing him. And it has an OFC. In my head she's about fifty, though, and she doesn't do much. But she does grow weed. She was a name-plus-beastie-and-location in a previous fic. I'm actually finding myself attempting to re-use my random helpful OCs, I guess because it's easier than making up a whole load of names, and also cuts down on the number of them, and also suggests that all of the fics fit in the same universe... which they might, but I'd probably exempt the incestuous porn from that. Anyway. Whateva. I go sleep now. In morrow I get up and go to Glasgow and find people. Yes.
ETA: sleep soon promise, but... Is that why I'm not writing Doctor-fic? Because 1) I don't feel I have a handle on Gallifrey(ans) at all, 2)a) all his coping mechanisms are on display and they don't appeal to me and 2)b) I can't actually think of anything worse than what canon's done. And Rose does nothing for me. I'm finding Mickey tempting, though... Maybe I'll go back and watch some Nine, and some Jack, and see if either of them manage to hit my fic buttons this time around. And maybe if I tidy my room I'll find the notebook that has half a Jack-fic in. But, y'know, tidying = effort = ungood. OK. Sleep.
I'm kidding, I know my limits and three beers over many hours is nothing like. The fic is fine. I just don't know if it does what I want it to.
Because there was an interesting little bit of meta on what people write about - what their themes are - and I realised that mine are 1) "they fuck you up, your parents do" except for parents, often read friends/colleagues/acquaintances and 2) how messed-up a person can be yet still cope, which goes either way - a) a person messed-up yet dealing, or b) piling on the pressure until someone breaks (as illustrated in my second-most-recent SGA, which was... let me find the comment... "a wonderful look at how you can use torture to break somebody" Heh.)
The new fic is 2)a) for Dean. Because there are enough people torturing him. And it has an OFC. In my head she's about fifty, though, and she doesn't do much. But she does grow weed. She was a name-plus-beastie-and-location in a previous fic. I'm actually finding myself attempting to re-use my random helpful OCs, I guess because it's easier than making up a whole load of names, and also cuts down on the number of them, and also suggests that all of the fics fit in the same universe... which they might, but I'd probably exempt the incestuous porn from that. Anyway. Whateva. I go sleep now. In morrow I get up and go to Glasgow and find people. Yes.
ETA: sleep soon promise, but... Is that why I'm not writing Doctor-fic? Because 1) I don't feel I have a handle on Gallifrey(ans) at all, 2)a) all his coping mechanisms are on display and they don't appeal to me and 2)b) I can't actually think of anything worse than what canon's done. And Rose does nothing for me. I'm finding Mickey tempting, though... Maybe I'll go back and watch some Nine, and some Jack, and see if either of them manage to hit my fic buttons this time around. And maybe if I tidy my room I'll find the notebook that has half a Jack-fic in. But, y'know, tidying = effort = ungood. OK. Sleep.
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Date: 2006-05-20 02:50 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2006-05-21 01:40 pm (UTC)Gillian wants to have lunch in town with you before she has to go, so we're trying to contact you quickly, but don't have any phone numbers or anything, so give us a ring ASAP if you get this.