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Nov. 24th, 2006 05:25 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kbk*hides face*
Today, I have to go talk to my personal tutor. Because I just utterly wasted a day and stayed up till this ridiculous time in the moorning. And I didn't even go to group - because I didn't want to, because I thought I'd work instead, but I just slept. And I'm going to have to pay a late fee for a book, and it's one that someone recalled, so I get to feel guilty about it as well. I will take it to the library Early. Maybe I'll... Two more hours here, in which time I will shower, then I will go, despite People, and I will go to the library, and my lectures, and meetings, and shite. Also write a letter to jobcentrelady because that is another week I have failed to call her (I think she is not in on Fridays, as I have called the last two Fridays and she has not been in, and of course somehow that is the only day I manage to.)
Ah crap. Now I'm crying. I just, i just suck so much at everything and there's this Huge Big Pile Of Stuff that I Really Really Have To Do and I didn't take my drugs today and I haven't slept and I.
OK. I have a word document open and I am bullshitting the assig due on Monday. It is not that hard, I have been kinda thinking about it. I do not care about the length as long as it has reasonable stuff in it, which it does and will. I am fucking brilliant and I can do this.
ETA: Half an hour produced five hundred words of reasonable looking bullshit. Why have I been putting this off so long? Oh yeah. Because I suck.
Son of ETA: I just looked at the assignment sheet again. It wants 2000-2500 words and "specific facts related to your chosen user community, their needs and how to address them via the event chosen." But I can do that! For true! i think
Today, I have to go talk to my personal tutor. Because I just utterly wasted a day and stayed up till this ridiculous time in the moorning. And I didn't even go to group - because I didn't want to, because I thought I'd work instead, but I just slept. And I'm going to have to pay a late fee for a book, and it's one that someone recalled, so I get to feel guilty about it as well. I will take it to the library Early. Maybe I'll... Two more hours here, in which time I will shower, then I will go, despite People, and I will go to the library, and my lectures, and meetings, and shite. Also write a letter to jobcentrelady because that is another week I have failed to call her (I think she is not in on Fridays, as I have called the last two Fridays and she has not been in, and of course somehow that is the only day I manage to.)
Ah crap. Now I'm crying. I just, i just suck so much at everything and there's this Huge Big Pile Of Stuff that I Really Really Have To Do and I didn't take my drugs today and I haven't slept and I.
OK. I have a word document open and I am bullshitting the assig due on Monday. It is not that hard, I have been kinda thinking about it. I do not care about the length as long as it has reasonable stuff in it, which it does and will. I am fucking brilliant and I can do this.
ETA: Half an hour produced five hundred words of reasonable looking bullshit. Why have I been putting this off so long? Oh yeah. Because I suck.
Son of ETA: I just looked at the assignment sheet again. It wants 2000-2500 words and "specific facts related to your chosen user community, their needs and how to address them via the event chosen." But I can do that! For true! i think
