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[kbk]

Hi I hate the world omg I am fail fail fail at uni crap.

I had a presentation this morning which I actually got through, which was good, but I am still shaking. Actually, I should go get food. Right now I am maybe attempting to meet group but, um, that ain't happ'nin'. Yeah, food good.

Anyway. I have to prove I have extenuating circumstances because now I have assignments that are over three weeks late. Which is, um, bad. I'd forgotten about that bit of the rules. Anyway, I'm hoping the letter-from-doctor will work, but there's this whole thing with the disability services and I don't even know what the hell I'm supposed to do and I think actually I will go cry at a lecturer later because just thinking about the whole situation is making me tear up.

And there's the money situation as well, which is that I got paid too much incapacity and have to give it back even though I've spent it - I really ought to at least try to reply to that - and somehow I have to prove to SAAS that I was really unemployed even though I sent them a damn letter about that months ago and I don't know what the hell else they want. And I have to send stuff to the recruitment agency including references and I don't know who the hell is going to give me a reference especially since I have completely failed to do the stuff I told my placement mentor I would do otherwise I would ask her but I... goddamn this all I don't know why I'm so useless

no, I do, I just hate it

and maybe one thing I could deal with but five is too many so I do none. I suck.

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[safetypinrosie.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

if people are silly enough to pay you too much money I think they should be banned from taking it back.

[kbk]

I know, and I told them, and it took them six months to get back to me about it, and... But the logical corollary is that if they didn't pay enough they then wouldn't recompense, which would suck. poo nonetheless.

*hugs back*

[edithmatilda.livejournal.com]

They should take money back slowly at least? Try CAB or whatever they call it in Scotland (CAS I think?) if they are arsey.

You clearly clearly have extenuating circumstances, and crying upon people is sometimes a useful way to demonstrate this. It requires less of that use of words thing.

[kbk]

I can arrange to do a direct debit but I would have to phone them and, um. eek. will see.

I did not go to see him yesterday but I will go sometime next week. I do'nt like crying on people, though. I don't like crying in public, or at all, really, and I worry about being a manipulative little "look what a helpless little girl-child I am" even though I know I am not really. Sigh.

It's just so annoying. That my depression contributes to this knock-on effect. I didn't get the assignment in, partly because of smurfs. If I'd gone to the prof then, I could just have got an extension, but I didn't, because of smurfs. So now I have to worry about "extenuating circumstances" and I'm putting off dealing with it (smurfs) and it's all a fucking mess.

But oh well what the hell. *licks you and runs away*

[edithmatilda.livejournal.com]

Crying is a bit shoite yes but sometimes if one realy feels that bad it is Ok I think. Also, I fought off the bit of my brain that thinks Arg am being helpless girl by concluding that actually women do not cry too much, it is men who cry far too little and thus I should fight my crying-is-bad instincts in the interests of enlightenment.

This does not always work.

Stuff sucks, mainly. *le hug*