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[kbk]

I CAN HAS DRUGZ! (Um, that would be the totally legal, physician-prescribed kind, obviously. (Though there is a packet of totally legal herb-stuffs that ought to be landing on my doorstep any day now...) And yes, I was desperate enough to crack the capsule open with my teeth in hopes of somewhat circumventing that delayed-release mechanism, and I didn't even have juice to wash all the little balls down with.)

Also can has bread and beer and juice and crisps and soup and chocolate. Good gatherer-monkey.

It's been quite a while since I did this to myself - ran out of drugs, that is - and I think, given the utter feverish misery of the last couple of days (and the rambling hyped insomnia of the last couple of nights) I will not be doing it again for quite some very long while. Though I do suspect a degree of self-sabotage, given that last week I was actually sleeping on something like a normal-person schedule. But now I'm trying to remember if double-dosing now will help; I suspect not, though.

One thing I did, during that hypedness, was book a session in the "Climbzone" at XScape. So I will be out of the house at least three times this week (today and choir and that) which is, sadly enough, an achievement for me. Hey, if I go shopping on Wed and... hmm... library on Fri? That would be every weekday. Hmm. See how it goes. Three is still good.

Oh, brr, dammit. 'tis cold, true, but work already, drugs! *sigh*

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[wishfulaces.livejournal.com]

I have discovered that without work, I become a total recluse and would leave my house maybe once or twice a week. This was scarily unhealthy for me.

[kbk]

Me too. I really need to find something - job, volunteer, whatever. Sigh.

[wishfulaces.livejournal.com]

Even just going out for a coffee--yeah, it's spending money rather than making anything, but at least it's out.

[kbk]

I did not make it out on Wed, but today I did climbing thing and also went shopping so that is like two things.

I guess in my mind going out for coffee is something to do with other people. But that's not a bad idea. Or, ooh, cinema, that could work. *spends money faster than it comes in, but writes it off as mental health money, which is obviously does not count. Like calories don't count if somebody else gave you the chocolate.*

[wishfulaces.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know. Cinema during the day? Is it cheaper to do that? And smuggle in your own snacks! That way it's barely spending any money at all.

Like calories don't count if somebody else gave you the chocolate.

What? That *totally* doesn't count. *looks shifty*

[quasi-modo.livejournal.com]

Yay that first sleep after letting them kick in is heaven!

must work on get sleep to a normal person thing and that going out too.

[kbk]

Mmm, sleep. And then I woke up this morning. Odd. If I've got a decent schedule it's purely by accident.