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[kbk]

So after gleeful post last night, I sat down and went through the Depression Workbook. Oddly enough, got depressed. And was up too late and thus slept in/did not get up and was late for my appointment, but was there for half of it, and went to bank and to shop then came home and sat for a bit then curled up in bed and went back to sleep. And didn't get up again until ten at night. So now my patterns may be entirely befucked. Sigh.

Meh and Blah and all such. I am feeling all self-sabotage-y. And I'm freaking out about this job interview, so I'm not doing anything to prepare for it, so it's going to go badly. And and and. Sigh.

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[kbk]

Yes. Yes yes yes. And yes.

Gah. Just had (very, very minor) minor spat with Dad. And my room is full of crap, again. And I don't so much want This job as I want A job, which, *shrugs*. But also *fear* and *ack* and *argh*

Now I am drinking minty Baileys. It is a good thing.

[edithmatilda.livejournal.com]

Baba's being a bit special at present too. He should never have toothache, it is just not fair to the surrounding universe.

Part of the rubbishness is that one then feels useless for living in circumstances where parent-fights are an issue. Especially me, obviously for I am SO VERY OLD.

If this job is not specifically important then that does mean it can count as interview practice. And only real interviews are good interview practice, because fake ones just aren't scary. I base this on uni practice ones from over 10 years ago but the same probably applies.

[kbk]

I feel bad about complaining about Dad when mostly it is not him that is the problem, it is my reactions to him. But the problem would still be alleviated by getting the hell out of here. I am sorry your Baba is being an arse and I cannot steal you and the menagerie to live with me.

I am mildly terrified by the interview. But simply doing it is major points, and if I manage not to make a complete fool of myself I will call it a win.

Agh. Need sleeeep.

[edithmatilda.livejournal.com]

I was thinking that the stuck-with-them aspect was much the same, yes. And parent-stress is still parent-stress regardless, I think, or I'd just have to have guilt over Baba not being Lara's mum and that would also be futile.

I must think of stuff to do. It is hard, it turns out.