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kbkSomething hard - explaining to eighteen-year-old step-cousin that depression bears little resemblance to logic, and that I can still feel entirely worthless despite having better exam results than he does.
Is the boy's 21st birthday, hence family party, and havbedrunk a fair amount and also ate a fair amount of chocolate sponge cake, and wound up talking for a while to future-step-sister-in-law and step-cousin-I-think-ish for a while and fssil is older/wiser than me and has experience with depression and various societal shit that goes along so, yeah.
Odd, odd, odd. I only went downstairs to start with because I was hungry, and I felt I should socialise, and then there was some talking and then some board-game-playing and I was drunk enough to talk to people without huge awkward. Ate more cake than actual food; not exactly unprecedented but still.
Nan (who has Alzheimers) had to be reminded that I was Harry's daughter. Keir tried to get Dad to say something nice about my tattoo. Wine is useful. I won the second evening game of Carcassone - afternoon game was Stephen, me, Martin; first was Phil, Andrew, me, Martin, iirc; second I think me, Phil... Martin, Andrew? Andrew, Martin? Do not recall.
Am have drunk several glasses wine/champagne. Also eaten much sugar which is not exactly sobering. Hmmmmmm. Stuff about bartering and religion and... things. shit. I hope I pass out, it is useful, because I often have trouble going to sleep which gives me too much time to think about things I don't want to think about. A lot of the time these are things that I really ought to think about at some point but just prior to sleep is possibly not the point in question.
Um. I do like my gecko. It is a bit obvious and cetera, but I do like it and I am not normal, dammit, so I may as well show it in ways of body mod; because if people are busy looking at the tattoo they might not see the scars. Or the spots, the hair, the fat, etc.
No se, no se, yo quiero... Um. Estoy cansada, but that's for physical exertion. Tengo... Tengo sueño. Yawn. Etc.
Is the boy's 21st birthday, hence family party, and havbedrunk a fair amount and also ate a fair amount of chocolate sponge cake, and wound up talking for a while to future-step-sister-in-law and step-cousin-I-think-ish for a while and fssil is older/wiser than me and has experience with depression and various societal shit that goes along so, yeah.
Odd, odd, odd. I only went downstairs to start with because I was hungry, and I felt I should socialise, and then there was some talking and then some board-game-playing and I was drunk enough to talk to people without huge awkward. Ate more cake than actual food; not exactly unprecedented but still.
Nan (who has Alzheimers) had to be reminded that I was Harry's daughter. Keir tried to get Dad to say something nice about my tattoo. Wine is useful. I won the second evening game of Carcassone - afternoon game was Stephen, me, Martin; first was Phil, Andrew, me, Martin, iirc; second I think me, Phil... Martin, Andrew? Andrew, Martin? Do not recall.
Am have drunk several glasses wine/champagne. Also eaten much sugar which is not exactly sobering. Hmmmmmm. Stuff about bartering and religion and... things. shit. I hope I pass out, it is useful, because I often have trouble going to sleep which gives me too much time to think about things I don't want to think about. A lot of the time these are things that I really ought to think about at some point but just prior to sleep is possibly not the point in question.
Um. I do like my gecko. It is a bit obvious and cetera, but I do like it and I am not normal, dammit, so I may as well show it in ways of body mod; because if people are busy looking at the tattoo they might not see the scars. Or the spots, the hair, the fat, etc.
No se, no se, yo quiero... Um. Estoy cansada, but that's for physical exertion. Tengo... Tengo sueño. Yawn. Etc.
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