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[kbk]

I got up earlier because I felt a bit sick but then I curled up in bed again and it was nice.

And now I have been pulled out of bed by a realisation of one of my issues.

I don't want to leave St A's.

Ask me, I'll say, "of course I want out!" But that's lies. Or, um, wrong, anyway, because I've lievd here for years and I know how everything works and it's just comfortable. So I'm fucking things up so I have to repeat. But I'm not gonna repeat. I'm gonna leave any which way I can.

And whatever I do will not be comfortable, it will be new and scary, so why don't I bugger off to the ends of the earth?

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[(Anonymous)]

Look, you've done it before, more than once. It wouldn't be an interesting experience if we thought we could all cope with it completely. There is always the unexpected, and that is what makes life the joy that it is. Or the horribly painful experience. Either way, that's why we do it.

As for me, well, you'd rather not know, I suspect. Someone from high school. I'm happy to continue with these anonymous comments at random times. However, if you really want to know, I'll tell. Just remember that truth and happiness tend to be mutually exclusive.

[kbk]

See, now I'm terrifically curious, but I'm not going to ask.

Ack. Still scary. But I'm gonna do it.

[(Anonymous)]

If you want to know: http://solitude.vkps.co.uk/About/

I know the link probably peaks curiosity, but it is your choice whether to follow it or not.